Is it Christmas Yet?

As a military spouse, mommy, consultant, and worker bee, my priorities shift to accommodate the needs of my family.  My children are always my main focus because they are my source of inspiration and motivation.  There have been days I wish I could sleep in and not have to worry about going to work the next day.  But that is not our reality.  Reality is that the months will feel longer, the days seems it never ends, but life continues to go on.

This month alone I have taken on multiple projects at both jobs.  Everyone who knows me and my situation believes I am crazy while I simply acknowledge the insanity and make it work for us.  I live in two different time zones.  Wishing I could calm my mind and just fall asleep at night but it simply does not help.  I silently endure the pain and ache that I feel not having my love safely next to me.

Some people may not understand the way of life we currently live.  Sometimes I wish I didn't have to explain my actions to others.  It just simply annoys me that instead of people worrying about themselves and the work they should be doing, they want to worry about what I'm wearing or doing. Sometimes, I have Drake's "No New Friends" song blasting in my mind because the ignorance of others makes things difficult.

At a young age, I knew that there will be people in the world who are seasonal friends and those who will be lifelong companions who will always be there to support you and your family.  In this dog eat dog world that we live in, it just shows that you really don't need new people that pretend to want to be in your life because if they don't see your struggles, they don't need to be in your life.

With all that said, all we can look forward to is having my love safely back home with us for good.  It will be awhile but at least I know that this is our life. It is real. No one can take that away from us.